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Enigmatic Magnetism

My head hurts and I'm not even in a relationship. Three of my closest friends have either broken up with their significant other, confirmed their suspicions of a false sense love or what ever they call it (meaning that the other person isn't that into them - cheating, bored etc). Anyway, the job description of a good friend is to idly sit and listen endlessly at their confirmed suspicions when you knew this months ago. Its mentally taxing and at times torturous after you've heard the same thing ad nauseum. Personally, one criteria I always apply and abide by when I decide to go into a relations is to gauge the stress-migraine meter.

I'm not perfect, no one is and no relationship is free of issues, but then I try to make it so that the stress-migraine factor is on the lower end of the scale. Meaning no ex-factor lingering around, work-a-holics, manic depressants, former convicts or members of any organized crime etc ~ you get the idea. I don't have migraine-inducing relationships nor do I really don't want them, yet I must suffer for my friends' decisions. That said, Id rather be alone with "Paulo" and a pack of double AA batteries than live a lie and be in a "false relationship". I don't know why anyone would subject themselves and live life that way. is

But, its human nature not to want to be alone. Freud has done extensive research on the topic of solitude, loneliness and the concept of being "unattached and single". More often than not most relationships even marriages are based on the this false so-called love. One friend once said, that her relationship was a business transaction - based on ROI. Like a mathematics formula. They had spend x amount of years together and have zxy financial investments together and to leave and start all over would be defy all business laws. Plus according to her, she had learned to love and him.

Well, I think we sometimes confuse attachment for love. To say one is falling in love is such a blissful ignorant statement. One doesn't fall in love - its either there in the beginning or not. And, in the beginning of a relationship you don't declare love immediately or else be branded desperate. I guess, not love per se but that unexplainable emotion. And please don't confuse it for lust either. This is the mistake many people make.

Then there are those rare relationships~based solely on pure bliss, love, devotion, attraction and everything Romeo and Juliet is made of. The ones where if asked why do you like said person and you can only mutter "I don't know". Because to say all the generic lame reasons like he/she makes me laugh, is kind, is smart, has good values, is ambitious isn't from the heart but rather from the mind. These are all basic fundamental core preferences - no one wants to be with a bitch or an asshole with no manners. When emotions are real and love is true you don't know why youre with that person but only know you cant be without - this person makes you overflow with emotions that even the greatest poets can never even begin to describe.

After many years of dating and being in and out of love (or it seems I thought), Ive finally figured out what is real and not. And I also figured we get "three big ones" (Bronx Tale).

And out of those "three big ones" there is still only "one true love" (Shakespeare).

I figured Narnar was my first and puppy love and Zman was my first real adult love; I guess I get one more. Zman and I tested our theories of real chemistry and true emotions. We sat 10 feet across from each other and even then we felt the magnetic attraction. And if you asked why we were together I couldnt begin to tell you. Its one of those relationships where you can have sex for 3 days straight and or not do anything at all and its all the same. Zman, Zman, Zman...